A Journal Entry

I want to share a journal entry in hopes that others (and myself) will realize they are not alone. We are not always going to have the answers. We are not always going to figure things out. Its okay to be sad sometimes as long as your trying to figure out how to get back to being happy. I can be so negative towards myself sometimes and its honestly really frustrating to look at. It bothers me that I haven't figured this out yet, and I may never have it totally figured out. But thats life. Life is always changing and were never going to have it ALL figured out. And maybe one day I will find comfort in knowing that I won't have it all figured out all the time. Allowing myself to not feel stressed about not having it together will be one of the biggest challenges I will face.

This part I took from my journal was from a time recently when I felt I wasn't good enough. After writing my feelings and slowly changing my perspective, it eventually got me out of the spiral I was in. By sharing these notes I hope it will help others out of their spiral too.

"Sometimes I catch myself in a negative spiral that I can't get out of.

My self talk becomes extremely negative and I become so hard on myself to the point where I don't feel good enough for anything

It feels like I am drowning and I can't catch a break to come up for air

I don't always understand why I feel like this

Sometimes I notice similar triggers, and other times it feels completely out of the blue

How is it that sometimes I feel as though I am the most confident person in the world and other times I feel like a waste of space - how do I fix this?

How can I change my self talk quicker so that I am not constantly putting myself down for weeks?

I would be so mad at my friends and family if I ever heard them talk about themselves the way I talk about myself - so why the hell am I talking to myself this way?

I need a better plan to get myself out of this cycle - I need to be nicer to myself

Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow I will be better. Tomorrow I will take steps forward instead of backwards. Tomorrow I will be nicer to myself"

This part of my journal entry I wanted to share to help others realize that it is okay to not always have it together. Positive self-talk is an important skill to have, however, I don't believe it is something that can be completely mastered. There will be some days where you doubt yourself, and that is okay because we can't be perfect all the time. Its difficult to allow yourself to be okay with having bad days but it is part of life. Tomorrow is a new day and a fresh start, so get up and try again.

xo,
Dani